My confrontation with western medicine, trauma and PTSD lead me to mystics
My discovery of "mystics" and metaphysical modalites cracked wide open at the onset of a very concrete and realistic diagnosis of Stage 4 cancer for my husband. I've always been a spiritual person, but facing life and death brought a whole new reality to the meaning of spirituality. It was no longer arbitrary. While I couldn't necessarily measure the mystical approach, it was still tangible results in helping me stay grounded in an otherwise turbulent time.
While western medicine was shoving their science down our throats (quite literally for Nathan), we knew this journey was SO MUCH BIGGER than a physical healing journey.
I'm not going to waste my time harping on western medicine, because everyone can believe what they want to believe. I am actually grateful for the practices they did that extended Nathan's life, and I see their place in the big picture, but in the end.. it didn't keep him here, it was a deficit too big to repay to his body.
I do belive there was so much more we could have explored holistically and energetically for his healing. I also do believe we all have a destiny window of when we pass from this life and it was part of his plan to move to the "next phase" of exisitence.
As he was on a journey progressing to transitioning this life, I was on a journey of healing my emotional trauma, grieving, working on my inner world and beliefs around life and more, which doesn't end there... PTSD, anxiety, depression all culminate to effect our nervous system and our bodily functions as well.
After Nathan passed, I knew my top priority was to keep my mind and body uber healthy. After all, I am now the only living parent. My kids need me more than ever. And my quality of life is everything to me and to them.
Through the experience of taking care of Nathan, going to countless chemo sessions, surgeries, taking over the duties of the home that he could no longer do, my body would go into panic attacks, fight or flight mode. Luckily, my good friend Audrey O'Brien introduced me to some simple breathwork that literally helped me calm my nervous system and bring me back to a state of rest. But it didn't stop there, because that is more scientific. The mystical side started to open up to me...I started to sense my connection to the "other side", my intuitive hits became stronger, my reasoning and understanding of WHY this was happening to my family because much more clear.
The science behind breathwork is acutally very affirming to me. I love it and geek out on it whenever I can consume more information. But the mystical and metaphysical side of things that are "unexplainable" are what have sustained me in the toughest times I've ever experienced in my life.
Passion much?! YES! 10000% YES! I've seen myself evolve from a shell of a woman just days after loosing Nathan, to not only surviving, but THRIVING. This isn't something I was born with. It's something I created with determination. I do believe we are all born with inate gifts and that I was prepared for this journey, but I could have chosen a different way of experiencing it. I have been determined to make an amazing life of what I have left of mine.
The mystical and spiritual side of things has amplified my mental health and healing through trauma.
I do believe some day we will be able to measure these modalities more accurately. For now, it doesn't matter to me whether it can be measured. If I feel empowered, positive and moving in a direction of healing, I'm all in.
What kick-started your journey in the mystical or metaphysical world? If you haven't tried it, why?